New day

Today is a new day.
A day of new beginnings,
A day of separation,
Separation for the past
And separation from you

I’m letting go of the holds you had on me
I’m letting go of you
There’s a new boy in my heart
No more room for you

Today is a new day
A day of fear
A day of anxiety
Anxiety and fear of opening up
You’ve found the crack
Into my soul
And that terrifies me.

Today is a new day
A day of hope
A day of excitement
Hope for a future
A future of excitement
Holding promise of a better life

Today is a new day
A day you asked me to be yours
A day I became yours
It’s a promise of a broken heart?
It’s a promise of a day in white?

Under lock and key...

Why is it easier
To be numb?

Why is it easier
To push you away?

Why is it easier
To put up walls?

I’m afraid
Of you
Of love
Of hurting.

I may be numb,
But I can still feel your pain.
You’re so far away
But I can feel you.

There may be a wall separating us.
But I still watch you through the cracks
The cracks are a sliver of hope,
Maybe an inner weakness?

I don’t deceive you.
There is a key somewhere
That will unlock
This guarded heart

You’re not the first to look for it,
You’re not the first to try your luck
Many before have tried their key,
Only to watch it rust
In their pathetic hands

There is only one key
There is only one way to break the walls
There is only one way to make me feel again

But there are,
So many questions,
And far too few answers.

So I’m left
Numb,
Scared,
And hiding,
But at least I’m safe?

Is there anything left to love?

A flower only has so many petals,
Every time one more is taken,
I can’t help but wonder,
What happens when the last is given away?

Is there anything left to love?
Who could love a flower without petals?
What man would keep a fruitless tree?

When love is free,
Who’s left to fight for?
Why bother waiting
When life is nothing more than instant gratification.

We live in the moment,
So we can die in the next.
What for?
Just a hint of truth?

What if the truth isn’t what we want to hear?
Effortlessly we tune to another station
It has become too easy,
To run,
To hide.

Stop playing with the dial
The truth is here,
The truth is now.

Stop throwing love around,
It is not just another four letter word,
It is far from an everyday feeling.

Guard yourself
Save something for tomorrow
Before there is nothing left to love.